2008 has been such a crazy year for me. Lots of ups and downs and periods of drifting. Some good things happened though, I released my first proper CD and we went on our first proper tour abroad (in lovely Italy!). We also did some really nice gigs in both London and Stockholm. Some really sad things happened though which kind of took away the joy of the good things this year. I broke up with my longtime girlfriend in the beginning of the summer and that occurence really affected me (doh!) both for the good and for the worse. And that event probably lead to the most crazy and emotional summer of my life. I could do a double album about that someday.
It takes a long time to process a five year long relationship and all the memories we have together. I’m such a sensitive person so I have a hard letting go of things that emotionally affect me. It would be so much easier to be one of the guys who just shakes it off. Instead, I get paralyzed and then I can’t really get anything done and then I just get more miserable and that spiral isn’t very healthy at all. Despite my paralyed state I’ve written a lot of songs during this latter part of the year and I guess you will hear them in the future in some way, but the thing is, I’ve really lost intestest in the whole music business. There’s an album recorded for quite some time now but it won’t be released in the normal way cause we simply don’t buy CD’s anymore so why should force someone else to buy them? But there will be artwork and there will be good pop music so don’t worry.
In the beginning of this year I was full of hope for the future, but for the last part of the year I’ve felt slightly cynical and bitter and really don’t want to feel that way. But 2009 will be a new start I’m sure, I wanna feel the excitement and joy I did when I recorded my first EP or when I wrote “If I Could Describe”. And I’m sure I will cause music is a very strong and positive force!
Merry X-mas and Happy New Year!
My Top Ten Albums and Songs:
ALBUMS
1.of Montreal - Skeletal Lamping
2.Håkan Hellström - Försent för Edelweiss
3.Fleet Foxes - Fleet Foxes
4.She and Him - Volume One
5.Pacific - Reveries
6.Air France - No Way Down
7.Cut Copy - In Ghost Colours
8.Frida Hyvönen - Silence is Wild
9.Lykke Li - Youth Novels
10. TV on the radio - Dear Science
SONGS
1. Håkan Hellström - Jag vet inte vem jag är men jag vet att jag är din
2. Fleet Foxes - He doesn’t know why
3. She and him - This is not a test
4. of Montreal - An Eluardian Instance
5. Cut Copy - Unforgettable Season
6. Speedmarket Avenue - Way Better Now
7. Håkan Hellström - Tro och tvivel
8. Pacific - Disappear
9. Elfi - A Nervous Breakdown
10. Satyricon - Black Crown On A Tombstone